Grandpa.. you are missed.

A close fren's grandfather passed away ytd.. Today, while chattin wid him at e wake, suddenly i thot of my deceased grandfather. It was barely 2 yrs and so very often he's missed. i dreamt of him at times...sometimz i woke up weeping. 

I rem e morning when i was awoken by that fateful call, i dashed over to his place across the road. i stopped on my path to his room.. tears swelled up my eyes. My cousin walked past mi into e rm, and touched his lifeless hand.. and muttered "grandpa", choking on his tears. I felt empty...I looked at him, tellin myself... "its e last time i'm seeing grandpa.. my last time."

"i'll miss u" i told him secretly. I stoned a while in e living rm.

When my dad and uncles brought grandpa dwn and laid him to the coffin, its e first time i saw all of them eyes all red and puffy.. tears rolled.. my heart went out to them.. my dad looked as though aged many yrs. My eldest cousin was crying. Aft which, the wake kept everyone busy. It was grand.. very grand... but i think that's the last thing we can do for him.

The last day was e worst. Each step in the final ritual was so painful cuz its sending him away. i hid behind my bros' back while i weeped my heart's out. When we were asked to turn our backs as they covered the coffin, we saw our grandma who was sitting behind. My bros' brave fronts over e days crumbled dwn when they caught her alone weeping quietly, wiping her tears wid e tissues.

We accompanied him... his last journey. Male cousins and my brothers broke into 2 groups of 4s to lift a wooden sedan and a plastic sedan...and we walked.. following the bus. Aft prob 200m, we hopped back on to the bus, the journey to the burial ground was quiet....

So fast... coming to 2.5 years. Now as i think of him, tears still swell up... bt the heart doesnt pain that much. Prob knowing he was no longer suffering.

I guess... no matter hw painful anything cld b. No pain is greater than the loss of a loved ones. Losing them forever. Yes, memories of them live... bt the thot of not able to see him ever again, is so painful. Today he's here.. tomorrow he's gone. So... cherish the people around you.

Today's Fathers Day. M sure grandfather is very much being missed. We used to all gather tog at his place, celebrating Fathers' Day. But he lives within us, inside our hearts.

I dunno hw close my fren is wid his grandfather. Prob like me, we shared our special moments when we were young wid our grandfathers. The tender love is always there. Hope he and family will be able to deal with the loss well.