I am so tired.

150am, just reached hm fm office. Exhausted - wonder hw long tis is goin to last.

Had a bad clash wid my boss today. Words spelled totally threw mi off balance, and angered mi close to tears. Totally being put dwn, as usual. Not the first time. Exhausted - wonder when its goin to happen again.

I hav a new colleague, very quiet lady.. thr conversation, thr ppl's feedback, i kinda scared to entrust her huge project. She's nice, but... if u ask her to walk straight, once there is a wall in front blockin her way, she wld merely stand there and wait for instruction. Aniwae... She was placed in charge of the upcoming huge event. I raised my concern, but i was strictly told off by my boss - "You either trust ur colleague or you do it urself. I TELL U, you trust your colleague."

ok. point taken.

So, i trusted upon her to get a simple floor plan being drawn up for one of an expo show. Ended up? The categories held by her immediate boss and her boss's boss was fantastically being done up. And the 1/4 area meant for my category? I dunno hw to comment. So much so for 'trusting ur colleague'. I raised the question hw cum such layout? i kena left, right, center...cuz my boss said i began pointing fingers. I never been unkind to her. I always offered help whenever she appears lost. For e floor plan, cuz she din come to me, i assume everything ok. Since communicating to designers on floor plan is nothing new to them. Its their day in day out responsibility. Anyway, despite mi sayin she din come to mi to discuss or shout for help, i assume everything ok. THEN my boss retorted dat i din follow up wid her.. I blur. @_@ He added i prob din communicate properly to her. Everything is abt mi and nothing abt her.

Sometimez appearing too vocal is nt good. Cuz its easily being misinterpretated dat u wld bully other quieter colleagues. So so so discouraging. So so so disappointing.

i seriously... dunno wat to say anything. ALdy twice, i wonder when e next one's coming up.