Demoralising..

Quite demoralising... oso dunno hw to put it. Alot of work to do, bt no mood.

My team r soon becomin fm 8 to 5 ppl. Puttin aside whether there is new replacement, i m  bit bit geared up to cover more duties fm those going to leave us. At the back of my mind - beta do it well, the next promotion, i might hav chance. So its quite self-motivative durin such harsh period of time.

BUT.... Recent communication flow btw e mgt and e soon remaining 5, seems abit weird. Info flow and discuss fm the top layer - 2 persons... to the lower layer - 2 persons.. totally omitting me tis mid layer. I realised dat.. alot of info and discussion, i'm juz totally nt awared of. I had tat sudden 6th sense that they might just decide to remove me this middle layer. Unfortunately.. it seems my worries are not exactly unfounded.

Nw if u ask mi... wats e feel of knowing u r soon to be redundant? I'd tell u... it feels really sucky. Its even worse den the stress of nt meeting ur sales targets or explaining ur figures. I've never felt so rotten. Its like, u are not up to the mark to the next layer, yet you are more senior den the layer below you. Where do i  belong? I dunno, man.

Shitty. These ppl used to be assisting you to do this and do that... the next thing u realised, you are dwngraded to do their job and you are just on par with them. I dunno wat career progression man. Perhaps its really time to faithfully flip e Sat papers and chk out better opportunities out there.