Steffie's World

wats ur greatest fear...

How it goin mates.. guess wat i'm doing? i'm doin some causal reading.. on toothbrushes. Our sonicare toothbrushes. lolz. I think its gd pdt. Too bad nw m havin headache, n sneezing away. Aiyo. lolz.

one thing i cldnt comprehend was to hear ppl tellin mi they are gettin married cuz of age. Ok, age plays a part - bt.. there's so much more to consider, n its so silly to jump into a commitment simply cuz of age, somply cuz e gal might b too old to hav kids, brushing aside more critical issues like - the flame is dyin off, the luv no longer dat strong, the financial doesnt really allow etc etc etc. i no longer wish to comment much of this - to each its own.

Alright... i get it. they'll still hav my blessing.

i was reading this interview with Will Smith. They asked - what is ur greatest fear? Will Smith answered his greatest fear is not being able to shake off fear. hmm.. abit chim.

mina, what is ur greatest fear? i used to freak out when i saw snakes even on tv. i still abit scared when balloons come near me. All due to previous bad bad experience. For nw, i m more afraid of isolation n loneliness den anything else. Thk God i'm managing e holiday blues or party blues well. haha.

so.. what is ur greatest fear?

peace in the night...

Its unusually quiet... prob cuz i'm nw at 14 storey up high.. so no longer cld i hear those cars zooming by..

2007 soon to b gone, and we r all pending for e arrival of 2008. '07 has its ups n downs, i'm thkful dat i hav made it through. A huge chunk of my focus was on my work. In my workplace, the only words i can think of are - chaotic, challenging, ever-changing. Yeah, change is a constant there. Its really up to individuals' adaptability. Hw many farewell parties hav i organised and attended? Gosh. Mina, i hav come tis far, gotta b proud of mi. =)

I wldnt b able to make it tis far without my boss, and my indian chief. First, they hav to endure all my nonsense and my sudden outburst, den they hav to patiently talk to mi to bring their points across. I think i'd long b fired if they r women. lolz. I love my mkting team, i think they are fantastic bunch of ppl. They bring mi laughter. Movin into 2008, anticipate to hav changes, even more politics, even more fire fighting and definitely challenges, i think my greatest desire is to continue to hav faith in myself, in my team, in my pdts to bring everything up to a new level. My greatest wish (n if God grants it, i'll b damn happy) is i dun wan my dearest partner to leave mi. My partner aka my mentor, my fren, my pillar, my strength, my watever - juz fall short of callin my lover. lolz.

Casting aside work stress, health problem, the only things r soooo well in '07 - is my family and frens. i hav fantastic bunch of frens i love them all. So i tell u, nothing matters more den them. Tis yr, my frenship wif few of my gals has grown stronger n i thk God for it. In replacement for a partner, i hav frens. lolz. Steffie has never ever been single for one long yr.. i tell u - tis a challenge. hahaha.. cuz i love men. Cute men. lolz. I tell u ah.. philips really hav no cute guys - pathetic. hahahah.

Next up and coming concern. Nope - nt abt mi nt being hitched. Its health problem. I think i hav taken more painkillers this yr as compared to 28yrs of my life. Its hw freaky it is.. Hmmm.. tis.. muz learn to manage - stress. Teach mi a trick or two, if u hav yah. =)

Shirley said she felt i am less happy nw. unusual observation, though i cldnt deny it. hmmmm... well, life will get better. Wat can b worse? Hmm.. i will still continue loving simple pleasure like...coffee? lolz. =) I noe u ppl miss dat genuine smile... dat radient grin n laughter which has been missing for like wat - 1 to 2 yrs? It will come back, i promise.

I dunno wat lies ahead for me next yr. Priority = great health and happiness. Its all in e mind. I dunno wat lies ahead for u next yr. But, steffie promises dat when u need mi, i'll b there for u.

Mina~ Merri Merri Xmas! ^O^

Merry Merry Xmas!!!! ^O^ May this season of happiness brings joy and laughter in ur life~

As usual, steffie's xmas kicked start in e mth of Dec... lotsa mini gatherings n parties, accompanied wif gift exchanges, games, gossips etc etc etc. One gd note is, i hav made new frens too. ^-^ I had a hell of good time. I do hope you hav had lotsa fun too. I'm lookin forward to boxing day - cuz steffie's gonna open all her pressies! My rm is so full of carriers!! lolz!!

Dunno y, bt i puked my latte n my chocolate cake aft i reached home. Urgh. Bad, issit? Bt, at least aft puking, i felt better. Still slightly sick, but.. nt so suffocating and tight. And.. damn dat e chestache is back. Bt lucky, no headache. ~_~ U noe my top of the list for my watsoever wishes? birthday wish, xmas wish, even new yr's wish... top of the list: gd health. =D So.. mina, I wish u all great health as well ya.

Watched - I am Legend! Hmmmmm.... i prefered national treasure to it... lolz. E show's alright.... nt exactly dat fantastic, prob cuz i hav slightly higher expectation for tis movie. So wee bit of disappointment, despite some touching scenes. But anyway - go catch it. *wink*

new yr new yr new yr! New yr's eve is next monday, mate!!! I m lookin forward to it... say bye bye to 2007 and a warm welcome to 2008. 2007 - casting aside empty love life, really lousy health, i m thkful dat i see results in my work. i... think, in 2008, when u see steffie, b prepared for someone special by my side. Muahahahahaha~ *wink* =D We'll see, we'll see.

Once again - merry xmas~ ^_____________^

new found frens... =D

Got to noe new frens today~ ^O^ Had sooo much fun, wld love to hang out wif them again. lolz. Our chilled out ambiance is great, my martinis tastes good too~, e company is fantastic, I had a fantastic day... ^O^

i cldnt believe dat my helicopter crashed juz like tat. WAH LAUZ! I think i more upset den e culprit. aiyo. Where got xmas hasnt gone pass, e xmas pressie aldy crashed and die-ed. ~_~'' Argh. I was hoping i might hav a chance to fly it. URGH! Sighz.

Oso dunno if today gd or bad day. bumped into someone i dun really wish to see. Always such surprises. HAIZ. I dun like it, dun like it, dun like it! Gimmie a break. Thkfully today's eventful day made mi forget the unfortunate incident.   

rare day to leave work early..

today is a rare day for mi to leave office relatively early. lolz. still hav e time to go for my eye massage. lolz. was sleepin away. yum yum. ^O^

i love e cooling weather tonite. Was havin coffee wif a fren in alfresco setting. soooo comfy. If e seats hav been couches, m sure i wont move my ass. =D

went pick up my appt letter wif TTSH. hmmmm... scheduled in Jan. Anyway, hope to get e scan over and done wif. I think there wont b really major serious problem, no much relapse lately.. Aniwae, went to get some pills today. Totally out of the steffie's concept.. In normal circumstances, wld never take such medications. Urgh - bt i guess, dun hav a choice. M sure everything will b fine. Steffie's been a gd gal ya.

Havnt finished opened up my xmas pressies - other den VIPs present. lolz. i've got some limited edition pdts fm Dubai. My grin is tis wide ^_____________________,^ Muz give e sender one big bear hug and one muackz muackz. HAHAHAHAHa....

one joyous day~

^O^ today's my final mad-rush for xmas shopping for e wkends' parties. I've gotten all i needed. Yhew~ ^-^ Somehw, i think i will make two of my frens very happy when they see their gifts. =D

Hw's ya PH? Tmr work for one more day.. and its back to holidays ^____^ so happy. Tis wkend i'll b busy... very very busy. Hmm... lookin forward to meetin my frens, and... i'll see hw it goes. ;p

Ytd, i had a hell lot of fun. In e morning, we went to a home, and performed for the kids - aka carolling. lolz. It was well... nt so bad. lolz. E kids r amazing! Their performance was awesome! So much better den we these bunch of uncles and aunties singing up there. DUH! lolz. Late afternoon had one whole tub of ice-cream. yum yum~ In the night was our xmas party. So much better. lolz!!!! Games, food, drinks, lucky draws, pressies... I had great laughs~ Some of my colleagues are juz damn damn damn funny. The chicken dance man... the practice-safe-sex santa claus... The electrified uncle dancer.. OPPS! lolz!! Will upload the picz once i hav em~ ^-^

hmmm... one pity though. cldnt get enuff of e hugs and kisses. ~_~

E Lings r off to Japan. i'll get a belated xmas pressie. hehehe... wonder wat they wld get mi. =D Need to start plannin for new yr's eve program... its like comin really soon... wk aft NEXT!! =O

Champion - juz overheard hw my bro taught my mum english --->
: "he call mi to tell u to call him... "((MUAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!))

wat... a night.

saw mike's video.. abit sad. cant imagine hw e rest taking it, afterall they r so close. ;( M really juz loss for words.

tis evening had a carol practice, cuz we r visiting a home on wed. A bit no standard - i feel. Tmr another carol practice, hope tis time round, better.

tonite's dinner was damn funny. i was askin charmaine some stupid questions abt hw she viewed her bf aka my youngest bro. If she thinks he has a bad temper, or stubborn blah blah blah. Den we threw e question back to our mum - nw den i noe my mummy is called "auntie kelly". muahahahahahahah!! Tis hw she used to cheat those young little kids. ~_~ So we asked mum, among e 3 of us, whose temper was the nastiest. She din answer, bt she looked straight at mi. omg. Everyone threw their heads back and laughed. wah lauz. Den Charmaine asked who e guai guai one. wahz.. obviously right. Rob n i rolled our eyes. Naturally, mum looked at nic. My mum ah.. dunno to open mouth answer one leh.

Den i shot her "who is the stupidest", guess wat she did? She scanned past the 3 of us.. and saw everyone waiting eagerly for her answer. She immediately pointed at herself. muahahahahaha. THAT is my mum. hahahahahahaha. Another question was who is e smartest academically. Nic said its Rob, but... e smartest is still the sista aka ME ME ME. hehehe. Rob n i were quick to point out tat Nic was e one who never ever has to study, bt cld still pass wif above avg grades. While both of us wld hid in our rooms and prepare for our papers. One thing is for sure - nobody has to worry on our grades. lolz. I think my parents r damn lucky to hav us. HAHAHAH!!

Had to drain dwn half a glass of liquor - all thks to myself. wah lauz. Supposed to b just one mouth, ended up i challenged my cousin to get his son aka my nephew to greet mi. This ah boy ar... whole life never willing to greet mi.. den e father and e mother and the uncle tried their ways n means to get him to call "auntie". My face drained of blood when he shouted loud and clear. -_-'' So fm one mouth = half a glass. Quickly hurried back to my seat when i saw dad coming towards us. =p

2.30 am....

Accomplished quite a far bit today. ^O^

Aft a satisfying nap (despite those sms comin in.. urgh), headache gone, i quickly rushed to Tiong Bahru plaza to get koko his food, plus wrapping papers for tonites mission. At least nw Koko got his xmas present as his daddy n mummy. hehe.

Had a great great Xmas gatherings wif e lings. so pampered wif e food, and e cakes! #^_^# HAHA.. N.. of cuz get to meet n know new frens. tsk tsk. We were havin great fun chosing randomly the popping tube, n poppin it to see wat small gifts hidding within. Koko was runnin ard, and thot he freaked out of the loud noise. I got earrings... n i screamed when i read e small note accompanying e earrings. It wrote "How does Good King Wenceslaus like his pizza" Thks for reminding, bt no thks. Dun make mi start missing him. Anyway - try this tongue twister: "Santa's short suit shrunk" LOLZ.

Its 230am, and ms steffie's eyes still open wide wide = cant sleep. bt no worries... i finished wrapping all my pressies!!! So proud of myself. ^O^ DAMN.. i still havnt gotten one very impt present. DIE..she comin back soon. i'm dead dead dead.

Tmrs seeing e babes again!!! so happy. =D

aint well.. again. aiyo.

dun feel quite well. i m havin a really bad headache plus bad tummyache... suddenly i wish i hav my painkillers here. Such situation, someone wld always text mi - pop panadoles and rest ya. Sighz..watever.

i hope it will go away soon, bt e rate it is coming... tough. AIYO. Bad timing issit, tonite still got xmas gathering...tomolo oso got another. omg. pls pls.. go away.

hmmm.. i need to think hard whose pressie i havnt bought... e lings love theirs. bt i forgot koko's. aiyo. lolz. ... tmrs e ladies! SHIT - havnt wrap!!! nxt wed got co. xmas party - hmmm... hope will hav fun. nxt thurs is PH! can rest. aiyo.. e headache is killin mi. need to take 5.

minasan.. hav a wonderful wkend ya

life... can be really vulnerable...

sad issit? though i dun noe her well, i was saddened by e news. So young, so wasted.. so unexpected.

i dunno wat to say.. other than.. cherish ur life, cherish the ones ard u.. And.. time waits for no man.. achieve wat u can. If u hav someone u wan to say hi, or visit.. pls - go ahead. If u hav those beautiful accessories u kept for CNY.. comeon - wear it! If u hav something u wan to do, and keep postponing etc etc.. aiya. just do it. Can u imagine she prolly has tonnes of things to do, bt she never gets e chance... Her birthday juz days away... xmas juz weeks away... n prolly wedding may b on e agenda soon.

watever it is... cherish wat u hav - urself, ur time, ur loved ones.

^O^

another cooling nite...

i cant believe dat i waited for 1 1/2 hr at Vivo for a cab, and at e end, cldnt get any. Frustrating. Bt had a great chat wif shirley.

Cldnt sleep - die. Had coffee at 10pm.. tonite, i can b ms security guard. hw worse it can b, esp my wee morning sms sweetie pie aint in singapore. haiz. bored.

xmas xmas xmas! Can u imagine my co. had a xmas carol practice. HAHAHA... maybe i sld bring a candle. i prob giggled till i burn e shirt of e person in front. Today was supposed to b e 'dateline' to submit our pressie for the colleague we had randomly chosen. Poor steffie was in office, wrapping e present. ~_~

i hate my office - its freaking COLD! cuz yr end, everyone clearing leave.. den office empty empty, so its exceptionally COLD. Urgh. My fav guy aka my FC joker, went BKK today for conference. AIYO. Going to miss this lunch kaki. He's really funny. lolz.

Wat a ladies nite... dat two charbos damn funny. ITs always great to meet up wif e two. I really hope one fine day, three can make it on a trip. In e mean time, i guess.. its HK, den nw.. its Batam. Really dying to go~

gotta upload some picz over at facebook as per requested.

i hate e weather...

i hate e weather! URGH!

keep raining raining and raining. Tonite STILL RAINING! Its frustrating cuz it means - inbound inbound inbound!!! What stars? No stars. What moon? No moon. What ice-cream? No icecream. Watever u wan outside? nope nope nope cuz its raining! i dying to go out, but... haiz. Such weather..everyone wld juz cuddle inside e blanket... n zzz. =(

Feel like crying. Sighz. watever. i juz noe tis wk will b a terrible wk - relax yes, bt lovey sick.

lets talk abt sth beta. OH..Had a great lunch in Ling Zhi Vegetarian today.. 2nd time dine there, still yummy. BUT got so hungry when evening reach. agree dat cant eat such stuff everyday. i love meat. lolz. =D Anyway, dad will never ever allow mi to b vegetarian. lolz.

recently hav cut down coffee in office. But sometimz i wld sametime one colleague, den we wld meet in e pantry for short coffee breaks and den hav a small chitchat. =D wonderful. Den, another colleague will join, den another will join. Reminds mi of lipton tea advertisement. Where fren joins fren, bring another frens..
I hav one more colleague who loves to drink milk. Everyday wld open the fridge to search for milk. lolz...so i bought one big pack of HL milk to share wif him. aiya, my office got alot of funny creatures. lolz.

Its Dec.. hws xmas shopping? xmas parties all firmed up? my shopping juz half way done. I look foward to our xmas gatherings. =D

hello there...

sarah said i lost weight =( hmm... alot of ppl said i lost weight... aiyo. recently been eating alot.. hope can gain bit bit back. lolz.

e announcement was made today. SIGHZ... felt so sad for them. I went up to my neighbour... asked her hw's she... wahz.. den e eyes went red and started to tear. ~_~ aiyo.. i also blink blink blink back my tears. i hope she can get another posting within e organisation. To mi, its always a waste to let ppl go tis way.

i seriously think my boss went abit far too overboard teasing mi. Its frustrating to hav him puttin mi down in front of the executives again n again. ~_~'' E best thing is.. they are pickin up from him as well. See - no respect liao. HAIZ. watever lar.

Ytd went handphone hunting. aiyo. guys ar.. Cannot find e preferred colour, e face literally sunk. Entire forehead written "super disappointed". Like a boy sulking, den walking ard aimlessly trying to search for another alternative. Yet u noe full well, once he decides on a model, give him any other, oso nt gd enuff. When he finally sees another colour which looked 'nt so bad', e face literally litted up. U noe those kids finally licking their fav lollipop? Juz like dat - So happy, grinnin from ear to ear. -_-" I give up. There's a boy in every man? Comeon, they are boys basically. Any new gadget - aiyo.. dat smiley satisfaction look, dunno to laugh or cry. totally amused.

i havnt done my xmas shopping!! worried worried worried.

working in... an mnc..

U know my background.. i came from a sheltered workplace where everyone helped everybody without much of a complain. Everyone works like receptionist, answering to phone calls, do quotation, answer sales enquiries despite watsoever pdt categories. Anything, everything, with little complains. Its little or even no politics. Everyone is valued, if anybody has to go, its e newbies at risk........

Till today, i still got all uncomfortable adjusting to the culture. I mean, i am surviving ok, juz uncomfortable at e way of working. When anything goes wrong, finger pointing shot up faster than the rockets shootin up e sky. Alot of times, even when fingers pointed to my end, i wld hav question marks popping up my head. Abit retarded cuz there usually no reaction fm my end. I mean, i aint those confrontation person. Revenge is sweet - i know. But.. I love peace leh. *slap me* Which means - ppl like mi usually will die w/o knowing in such setting. Lemmi start counting e days ya.

Got to know dat some of my colleagues might hav to ask to leave... so so so so sad leh. Who cares abt hw many yrs of service? they dun care. they juz noe - i ask u to leave, i pay u, u juz leave la. SIGHZ. Steffie - Welcome to e world of reality.

Yuckz. I'm thoroughly disgusted. Yes, i know full well, it is happening everywhere. Yes, take it as i am juz a mountain tortorise or watsoever u called it. I cant even find genuine intention anymore. ~_~''

2am in e morning..

Dun ask mi why i'm still online at 2am in e morning.

Vexed.. abt alot of things. Sometimz really really hav to remind myself dat our attitude towards everything/anything is impt. Cuz if in ur mind, u think it wont work, high chance it will nt work. If u think its nt goin to happen, den it prob will nt b. Think, steffie, think!

Anyway... din noe dat my blog accompanies dear u durin these chicken pox days. =p Sick of listen to hoegaarden? i still hav kilkenny... =p Murphy's Brew as u suggested? comeon, it tasted like coffee plus chocolate. lolz. Lets go for our horse riding and our red wine by e Desaru beach, under e stars. I din forget, i think u wld. =p Get well soon!!!!!

Its sunday aldy! Urgh.. can time move slower? i really wish leh. Last nite slept well... for the longest time, i think i had a gd sleep.. though its a beanbag. lolz. prob at times, one juz has to get out of the usual setting, automatically u will reset the usual automatic routine. I cant get to sleep at home, i go elsewhere sleep lar. I cant work in office, i go elsewhere work la.. might juz get unexpected results. Ppl talk abt creative accounting, steffie sld juz touch on creative productive setting.... like working or bloggin at tis hr *wink wink* muhahahaha...

Tonite's really windy. In a windy and quiet nite tis hr, i am thkful for the peacefulness in mi. No headache, especially. Recently the story of the gal holding on to her necklace, despite the father kept askin her to give him came so often into my mind. For so many times he asked for her beloved necklace, she juz relunctant to give it up. Once, twice, thrice.... till one day, she handed it to him wif tears in her eyes. Its tough to give up something u really really really like. I guess some point in our life, we hav to make such decisions where we dunno if its worth it, or if we wld regret it or if we cld juz continue to live e way we used to live...... U guess e ending? Upon givin up her old necklace, her dad passed her a brand new, even better necklace. She never been happier.

Moral of e story? Aint tough, issit it... Bt to give up in e first place - takes alot of courage. ~_~