Steffie's World

yoz yoz...

Had a long chat wid my director in e morning... m suppose to go to back to him on monday wid my answer. abit vexed... even aft countless of discussions wid my boss. i prob wont forget dat look of surprise on the other senior mktin mger's face.

Great ktv session last nite.. everyone was juz so funny. Everyone had fun. Then had my long craving of soya beancurb - yum yum. And today despite e super humid weather, we had yum yum ice-cream. So pampered. Tis prob ends once aug comes.

Its Sat! So thkful dat its wkend. Tis wk was alright, juz the entire super low morale hangin heavily in the air...and the sudden greetings  of "when u tender?"; "when's ur last day?" instead of "hw are u hanging on?"

My director said i frown alot, alot and alot. I retorted its a habit. As usual kena shot dwn. lolz.

Anyway.. hav a great wkend ya~

feel..... good actually.

Ytd and today abit under the weather. I hope it wont full blown over e wkend. Sore throat.. feverish.

Aft e new structure being announced, my mood hasnt really picked up. Esp i started to link e possible change due to my work capability. Though my boss insisted it was not cuz of my work performance, i juz cldnt nail dwn one real reason for e change. Or rather.. i cldnt accept their reason.

In e evening, i saw my regional counterpart who juz went back to his country, online. We dun usually talk much, but i think he's like my Indian chief - very capable man. So i said hi.. and our conversation just flowed. He asked hw was i... and asked if i wan to talk abt it.

So sweet hor. So i guessed he knew abt it la. Not to go into details.. bt at least i know dat its an initiative fm those God's up there. Since he's my regional senior mktin mger of my latest portfolio, i took e opportunity to ask him abt wat he thinks of my work so far. He understood where i coming fm, immediately clarified dat its nt abt my work performance. In fact, he thot that i was great in my work and i hav met his expectation though it was such short stint working together.

wahz.. I MET HIS EXPECTATION leh!!!! I thot he always think i very lousy. i was.. very pleased to hear dat. He has no reason to lie to mi la, cuz hes very result driven lolz. He was quite apologetic dat he was so busy dat he has no time to groom mi. haiz. SEE - i cld go far one leh. muhahaha. Haiz. I think Feng-yun lookalike also quite pleased wid mi. It pleases mi when ppl think gd of my working capability, cuz it means mi aint flower vase. Cuz a few of my colleagues feel dat i move too fast too furious. Bt its a hell tough work k.

Watever the case.... for once, i felt happy.. at peace wid myself. Cuz these senior mktin managers hav a hell lot of expectations.. and it pleased mi to know dat i'm on the mark. i guess, tat to me - was enuff.

Reality of Pain

I was making my way to the canteen alone... then i turned and returned to office - no appetite. The lights were off... still I started to clear my station.

so many papers...
i saw the papers of data i drilled within e system to chk e sales data of my shavers islandwide, key stores.. for 2006.. then 2007.  i rem those nights in my ex-office using the unfamiliar system, drilling the data till i broke dwn and cried.

i saw the file marked "discussion wid Asean". Within e folder, its abt pricing, pdts info, sale by models. i rem those days i argued wid my Indian chief till i puked blood.

i saw my product launches info... my pride and joy hero shaver, and my last cool robotic shaver launch. i rem hw busy i was wid my first launch. The sense of relieve when its over. I rem i was very pleased cuz for e first time i din rely much on my immediate superior. And he praised e gd job done.

i saw my mkting calender plan.. which i had done a million times and had to review again and again and again. I rem hw my boss was drafting hw i sld go abt doing. I rem hw he ran through, sketch out, briefed mi.. and then when i was on my own, i learnt, progress and nw being independent.

i saw those competitors brochures which my promoters collect for mi.. analysing wid the boys on the promotion and hw we cld counter competitor moves. i rem those endless wkend store visits and the hatral whenever i saw hw nicely decorated my competitors roadshw was...
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it hurts to know i wld nt b doing all these and i hav to give them up. My portfolio - my pride and joy. I blinked back my tears, while i tored/shredded off the papers. Yes, though i hav thot it through.. bt when the reality sets in, the pain feels unusually real.

Wassup?

Got a call fm an old fren... always pleased to hear fm old frens dat they are a batch of faithful reader of my blog.

Yes, most of the time i complained abt my work.. the long hrs, the meetin, the late night sleep etc etc. But dat doesnt mean i hav no time for frens ya. Just text mi, i'll always make time. Juz advance booking lor. ^^ U wld b doing mi a favor, cuz meeting frens = decent lunch/dinners.

U prob noe mi well enuff dat i whine alot.. i complain alot.. bt my love and passion for my job is evident. Otherwise i prob cannot b bothered spending so much time on it. Recent incidents made things slightly different... disappointment & passion sizzled out.. Once again, i felt i hav to give up something i truly love. I hate dat, but... sometimz we juz hav to do wat we hav to do ya.

Leaving means leaving behind wat you have built; leaving behind e batch of wonderful colleagues whom u adored & loved. There will be ppl whom prob feel sad, happy, pleased, surprised... bt in no time, work resumes and everyone get back on track wid their lives.

Urgh.. i gotta give up two things i loved! They giving mi up too. SIGHZ.

Met up wid e gals... Oh ya! Dat reminds mi upload our photos~ Will b on FB & M.. so chk it out there. I was saying I envyed ppl who r so free, having time goin yoga/gym everyday aft work. Eileen said.. its nt dat these ppl r abnormal.. their workin schedules r normal, its mine who's abnormal. I paused, and thot abt it - quite true leh. hahaha.

Unusual light mood today...

Is on 1.5 days of MC... .. felt better aft a gd rest. Tmr's back to battle ground. Sld b feelin e blues.. instead m feelin a weird sense of peace. Prob cuz i m no longer uncertain, and have made a clear decision. I trust all knots wld b untied... soon.

Met shirley for coffee today.. always felt better aft meetin a fren. Felt a bit nausea cuz i think my condition wasnt suitable for coffee. Later sure kena nagged. But anyway, M definitely looking forward to our Sat meeting. So excited. Got a birthday pressie for Jess.. hope dat she likes it. Was so tempted to buy it for myself cuz i love it. Too bad only thousand and one piece. I must remind myself to reserve a table for Sunday. Lousy planner, i am.

Recently my O2 is giving mi bit bit problem. Perhaps its time to change.. bt i love it leh.. white colour.. plus its white O2 hp holder. Why do we hav to give up things we like? Life's a bitch at times. hahahaha.

U noe our carnivaL sale.. initially it falls on my birthday.. bt den it was pushed to e week aft. So i was happy when i heard of it. Cldnt imagine workin full day on ur birthday ya. Bt nw... whether its Aug, or its Sep.. it really no longer matters. I may be there as a consumer for all u noe. Familar faces leaving and it is truly demoralising.. I wish e Fanastic Four speeds up their decision b4 e team turns brand new.

Grandpa.. you are missed.

A close fren's grandfather passed away ytd.. Today, while chattin wid him at e wake, suddenly i thot of my deceased grandfather. It was barely 2 yrs and so very often he's missed. i dreamt of him at times...sometimz i woke up weeping. 

I rem e morning when i was awoken by that fateful call, i dashed over to his place across the road. i stopped on my path to his room.. tears swelled up my eyes. My cousin walked past mi into e rm, and touched his lifeless hand.. and muttered "grandpa", choking on his tears. I felt empty...I looked at him, tellin myself... "its e last time i'm seeing grandpa.. my last time."

"i'll miss u" i told him secretly. I stoned a while in e living rm.

When my dad and uncles brought grandpa dwn and laid him to the coffin, its e first time i saw all of them eyes all red and puffy.. tears rolled.. my heart went out to them.. my dad looked as though aged many yrs. My eldest cousin was crying. Aft which, the wake kept everyone busy. It was grand.. very grand... but i think that's the last thing we can do for him.

The last day was e worst. Each step in the final ritual was so painful cuz its sending him away. i hid behind my bros' back while i weeped my heart's out. When we were asked to turn our backs as they covered the coffin, we saw our grandma who was sitting behind. My bros' brave fronts over e days crumbled dwn when they caught her alone weeping quietly, wiping her tears wid e tissues.

We accompanied him... his last journey. Male cousins and my brothers broke into 2 groups of 4s to lift a wooden sedan and a plastic sedan...and we walked.. following the bus. Aft prob 200m, we hopped back on to the bus, the journey to the burial ground was quiet....

So fast... coming to 2.5 years. Now as i think of him, tears still swell up... bt the heart doesnt pain that much. Prob knowing he was no longer suffering.

I guess... no matter hw painful anything cld b. No pain is greater than the loss of a loved ones. Losing them forever. Yes, memories of them live... bt the thot of not able to see him ever again, is so painful. Today he's here.. tomorrow he's gone. So... cherish the people around you.

Today's Fathers Day. M sure grandfather is very much being missed. We used to all gather tog at his place, celebrating Fathers' Day. But he lives within us, inside our hearts.

I dunno hw close my fren is wid his grandfather. Prob like me, we shared our special moments when we were young wid our grandfathers. The tender love is always there. Hope he and family will be able to deal with the loss well.

TGIF

TGIF.. i m truly relieved dat its friday.. nw as i speak, its sat. Thk God dat for tis wkend there is no official homework to do. I really wish to give myself a gd break over tis wkend, aft one long wk of long hrs and work stress. So here i m... back fm a wedding dinner (Wif really gd food, n great company), a nt-so-bad movie... and here in my aircon room, and a super chilled kilkenny.

Actually, wasnt in pretty much of gd mood lately. Was very bothered abt some issues, bt at e end of the day, its all abt choices actually. Either u give up something, and start everything afresh. OR u carry on and see if things turn for the better.

I learn sth abt love.
Love.. is being wanting the best for the person.

Even if u hav to send the person away, knowing full well dat by encouraging the departure marks e beginning of the end of the relationship... No matter hw much it hurts inside , u'd still encourage the best for your loved ones. Its like... no matter hw tough is, a mother sloggin her life away to send the son o/s.  Its like... no matter hw much u wan ur partner to be by ur side, u wld still encourage him/her to fulfill his/her dreams, even if it means leaving u for an extended period of time.

After all... if its urs, its urs.

Demoralising..

Quite demoralising... oso dunno hw to put it. Alot of work to do, bt no mood.

My team r soon becomin fm 8 to 5 ppl. Puttin aside whether there is new replacement, i m  bit bit geared up to cover more duties fm those going to leave us. At the back of my mind - beta do it well, the next promotion, i might hav chance. So its quite self-motivative durin such harsh period of time.

BUT.... Recent communication flow btw e mgt and e soon remaining 5, seems abit weird. Info flow and discuss fm the top layer - 2 persons... to the lower layer - 2 persons.. totally omitting me tis mid layer. I realised dat.. alot of info and discussion, i'm juz totally nt awared of. I had tat sudden 6th sense that they might just decide to remove me this middle layer. Unfortunately.. it seems my worries are not exactly unfounded.

Nw if u ask mi... wats e feel of knowing u r soon to be redundant? I'd tell u... it feels really sucky. Its even worse den the stress of nt meeting ur sales targets or explaining ur figures. I've never felt so rotten. Its like, u are not up to the mark to the next layer, yet you are more senior den the layer below you. Where do i  belong? I dunno, man.

Shitty. These ppl used to be assisting you to do this and do that... the next thing u realised, you are dwngraded to do their job and you are just on par with them. I dunno wat career progression man. Perhaps its really time to faithfully flip e Sat papers and chk out better opportunities out there.

Cherish

Among millions of strangers, to be acquainted and then become friends is not mere coincidences. When fate brings 2 strangers together, as friends or as lovers; think of the millions of people ard the world who do not even have the chance to meet one another. We read so many articles of ppl coming in your life for just a brief moment to tide you through some hurdles, ppl who stays on to make a difference… it may be a short sparkle, it may be a prolong sunshine.

As such, I say - cherish the ppl who fate brings to you.

What makes life beautiful is knowing new people, experience new things, feeling new emotions… what makes life intriguing is learning hw deep love can run, hw sacrificial one can be, hw tough one can become and hw compassionate one can be. As such, I say – cherish the surprises which life brings to you.

Every day we have ten to hundreds of complains. Today probably is your birthday, but there is no birthday cake, no birthday pressies. Today probably is that 1 yr anniversary since your first kiss, but despite obvious hints, there is still no celebrations or pressies. Today probably is your sick day n you wishing your special someone showered more concern, give you more hugs and kisses. Today probably you missed your fav show. Today you probably popped a pimple; you kena scolded by your boss or your parents; you were embarrassed in front of your crash etc…

Whatever unhappiness you have… Just take a step to remind yourself that...

At least you are alive to experience the flow of emotions through you… alive to experience the touch of wind on your face… alive to feel the warmth of sun on your body… alive to breathe the fresh air ard you…

Time flies~

Time flies~ 2 wks since my last entry. Busy busy bumblebee... Back fm my trip. Got to know a fantastic gp of ppl... enjoyed our sandcastle building...e snorkelling...n oso e last night of boozes... *ignoring e tough journey, those sandfly lovebites... =( lolz*

e lovebites are still ard.. still super itchy.. counted more than 50 spots. Urgh, i hate them. Tanned so many million times and tis e first time kena their alluring attention. DAMN. When they started to itch, u'd think hell is a better place to live in. sighz. Awful sight.. need lotsa comforting. sobsob. so so so ugly, so so so itchy.. so so so sad.

once headed back singapore, its super duper busy at work. Dad last saw mi on e day b4 i left for my trip. So when he saw mi tis evening, was fast to strike some conversation wid mi. Haiz. Again, he asked mi to reconsider my choice of work. Almost fainted when he saw e bites. Mum's more cool. Ya, shes always cool. I went to her and said 'i wan show u sth, dun scream.' She went "Oh, u go get a tattoo issit?" -_-'' I think she's disappointed to see red sore bites instead. (buei tahan, at times %^&*) 

Recently i truely loathe hearin tis comment - "omg, u lost weight!" I literally rolled my eyes. WAH LAUZ. Stop tellin mi dat. I m nt tryin to imply dat i cld lose weight easily and being cocky to my fellow female frens who cldnt lose a pound despite their super hardwork.. bt.. its super discouraging to keep hearing dat.

Silence into the night...

1.00am... its still relatively warm in the late night. Just done wid my product launch deck, tomolo to start looking into the forecast numbers. My wkend is gone just like that. Good news is.. i'll b away during the long wkend Bad news is... the very next day i return, it is my product launch week.

Unfortunate for the bad timing. High chance i might b bothered abt any hipcups in the preparation of the launch, might nt b able to enjoy fully, but still, i'll go to my break   Someone is going to b real touched. Gotta b careful on my tan, otherwise during my launch dates, i wld look like some red lobster...or worse still -skin peeling away.

Its nt all work for mi today.. In the afternoon, I went for a workshop wid e gals in the afternoon. Pretty entertaining cuz one of the presentors is really damn funny. We were laughing till our side ached. Must chk out the papers next week, to see if we are featured on it. Hey babes - e picz uploaded onto facebook ya!! Nice~

Stress & Pressure seems flooding in. Past wk was terrible. Too many meeting, too busy, too late nights, cant make it for kickboxing, and my Yoga.... n i lost my appetite. Bad thing is e chestache and e headache hit mi again - b4, durin & after work. sighz. The insomia is getting worse. HAIZ. i was surprised that "its all coming back to me".

I was analysing - the reason other than e fear on unable to complete the pilling work, another factor was the negative "karma" inherited fm some of my colleagues who are plannin for their exit. Of cuz i cldnt deny tat recent conflicts btw mi and my team mates & boss made mi lose that motivation totally.

Anyway, for now...i'll go for my break, concentrate on my launch, and i'll see if there's improvement in health, in work, in wkplace relationship... Anyway no one is indispensable. My new portfolio, my colleague still ard, so she can take it back...juggle as she has done before. As for my existing portfolio, my boss's new found right-hand lady will b more den capable to handle.

Gotta catch some sleep... Tmr's lotsa things to rush.

I am so tired.

150am, just reached hm fm office. Exhausted - wonder hw long tis is goin to last.

Had a bad clash wid my boss today. Words spelled totally threw mi off balance, and angered mi close to tears. Totally being put dwn, as usual. Not the first time. Exhausted - wonder when its goin to happen again.

I hav a new colleague, very quiet lady.. thr conversation, thr ppl's feedback, i kinda scared to entrust her huge project. She's nice, but... if u ask her to walk straight, once there is a wall in front blockin her way, she wld merely stand there and wait for instruction. Aniwae... She was placed in charge of the upcoming huge event. I raised my concern, but i was strictly told off by my boss - "You either trust ur colleague or you do it urself. I TELL U, you trust your colleague."

ok. point taken.

So, i trusted upon her to get a simple floor plan being drawn up for one of an expo show. Ended up? The categories held by her immediate boss and her boss's boss was fantastically being done up. And the 1/4 area meant for my category? I dunno hw to comment. So much so for 'trusting ur colleague'. I raised the question hw cum such layout? i kena left, right, center...cuz my boss said i began pointing fingers. I never been unkind to her. I always offered help whenever she appears lost. For e floor plan, cuz she din come to me, i assume everything ok. Since communicating to designers on floor plan is nothing new to them. Its their day in day out responsibility. Anyway, despite mi sayin she din come to mi to discuss or shout for help, i assume everything ok. THEN my boss retorted dat i din follow up wid her.. I blur. @_@ He added i prob din communicate properly to her. Everything is abt mi and nothing abt her.

Sometimez appearing too vocal is nt good. Cuz its easily being misinterpretated dat u wld bully other quieter colleagues. So so so discouraging. So so so disappointing.

i seriously... dunno wat to say anything. ALdy twice, i wonder when e next one's coming up.

Assignment accomplished fm Princess...

Hehe.. u know who u are...

Ok this is that calender of the "niu lang".... See dat silly niu and dat gong-gong boy. hahahaha. Lets look at the closed up picz...

ok.. saw dat feet? hahaha.

i'm moving~

I'm moving~ Some of u wld noe wat i mean, go chk ur email to see if u receive anythin fm mi *wink*

Hws mi over e past wk? Well, work is usual-like a piece of junk. Further demoralised cuz its contagious. No longer rule out nt flippin e sat papers. As much as it has high potential for job prospect, some hygiene factors r juz missing. Anyway, there's prob juz a couple few whom i will miss. But well, life goes on. =D

May will prob b really busy - new portfolio for one. Plus i hav my launch to take note as well. Had a differing view on a colleague's capability to coordinate e launch project. Nt really confident of her but i was told 'to trust my colleague'. Prob becomin really selfish on my part - primarily focus on meeting objective aka success of e launch & totally ignore e fact dat we need to give chances to groom ppl internally. No right nor wrong, juz dat i thot this launch nt exactly a platform to groom ppl. Too much to lose. 
But still - decision's made. too bad.

Tuesday's kickboxing was really straining. Tired sia. I hope tomorrow's yoga wont stretch my screaming thighs. lolz. I really look forward to wkends.

Tis prob my last. Till we talk... take care~

Unspoken longingness...

Once.. i was captivated by this object. Not by the outlook, for beauty deserted it. Or, its never consider beauty, by my std. Familiarity soon evoked the interest because underneath that thin superficial layer of appearance lies something more intriging. Yet, by default, the object is classified as beyond ur reach.

Every step nearing the object, e scent smells like roses to ur nose, e scarf touches like silk to ur skin... its like e aroma of coffee tempting you to take a deep breath, sucking in e air, letting it through ur nose & transpassing dwn to an imaginary taste to ur tongue. Emotional turmoil when all u wan is to watch from afar for u understand its lethal sld u taste it - like hooking on to opium. period.

Just as Adam's being tempted by Eve, and tasted the forbidden fruit, e heavenly taste and the hidden desire to own the object suddenly burst & explode in universe. Holding e object... the unspoken longingness and love pour steadily - wishing to call it mine. Internal struggle continues - for all is clear dat all good things will soon come to an end.

Opening the hand, taking one last glance at the beautiful object, shakey fingers treading the edge as though understanding thats the final touch... eyes blinking back e tears, clearing the vision, not trusting ownself in speaking. Each pump of the heart as though knife piercing through, reminding the pain that its tearing your heart to gain its exit.. its exit out of that special corner in your heart, its exit out of your life..and its entry onto another galaxy.

Stupid Nap-Mare. URGH.

Had an afternoon nap-mare. Woke up sweating.

It sucks, cuz it was like ur deepest fear came true... each and every scene played right in front of ur eyes... and the emotional turmoil was so real. 

I pray it wld never happen, the way it did in my dreams. I hate nightmares. No more nap for mi - ever again. Still feel shakey. Urgh.

Had my yoga class ytd. Haiz. I think those ppl yoga majiam like emotioness creatures.. even when they talk its monotoness. -_-'' I juz cldnt shake off that thot of i-cant-fit-in-wif-e-yoga-ppl-cuz-they-sound-boring, every time i attened a yoga class. Prob m juz too used to kickboxing where u r out for blood. Eeeekkk... steffie's violent gal. nt gd nt gd. They aldy reached self-actualisation stage...... Amen.

Tmr's kickboxing. Enjoyed my last wk's class, aft throwing some punches, and sweating it out, felt so much better. The team seems better... bt, still nt gd enuff. Look forward to some martial art steps. =D

I m contemplating to shift my bloggy out of frenster.. Prob multiply, blogspot or xanga... bt.... SIANZ. See hw ler.

TGIF!!!

Thk God its Friday!!!! Its 12am~

Tis wk is HORRENDOUS! New volcabulory fm fatty. "Dun understand? Go chk e dictionary." Kaoz, always using chim chim words, i dun bloody understand, and i dun care =p

Tis wk is really really... i dunno wat to say. Meetings filled my calendar like nobody's biz. Friday - same. Bt... its alright, cuz its friday~ ^^ I signed up Yoga - again. Lolz. Saw e content - actually i have learnt dat aldy.. bt well, start basic first. Look forward to tmr's lesson. AND...Though Sat, need go back office meeting at like 830am, its alright. As long as... its wkend, i get my break. =D So easy, get contented ya. =D

Dat night, i was so tired dat i forgot to remove my contact lens b4 i sleep.. ur guess is as good as mine. Haiz.. e next morning, its Ms Tan aka, steffie c/w glasses. @_@ They juz kept teasing dat i look like a teacher. %$#@.. wonder if i really look weird. Even fatty asked mi if its new pair of glasses.

My colleague told mi I looked funky in this CMM (Customer Marketing Managers) booklet. Its a booklet where they show my org. mkting ppl's photo. Maybe i juz dropped by to see e picz. Den i'll see my two earring boys aka, my two Marketing Managers. My boss is getting cuter as days go by - esp his recent hairdo. Prob ppl who's gettin married like tis glow in them. When i in love, its very apparent.. the glow is there. Den e world is so beautiful. hahahahahaha. For nw, steffie lives in hell ;p

Next wk prob goin to really shitty as well, cuz its mth end = closing. Urgh.. beta dun think dat far - enjoy as for nw.

hws ur wkend?

Hws ur wkend leh? Mine was packed wif activities, nw den hav bit bit time for myself. Fri was pissed off cuz mi woked up wid a "yoohoo~ TGIF!!" Ended up, kena called in meeting wid some biz partners, n had to join lunch too. ^%$# No choice bt to cancel my own lunch appt. Aft dat its meeting till 1am in e morning. I had wanted to go party~ WAHLAUZ! Came hm, wanna hav a chilled beer - nothing in e fridge. ~_~ Felt like cursing. lolz.

Wkend was alright. Sat was mktin visits, shoppin, movie... Sun as well. =D Watched Forbidden Kingdom & The Other Boleyn Girl. The latter was fantastic! Great choice of movie =D

Went to tis residental place in tampines to pick up a sinful brownie cake. den it struck mi dat its damn gd biz potential to set up a website, or maybe a blogger site and sell ur hm-made cake la, accessories la, clothes la. Low cost, via word of mouth or relying e power of internet. Yoohoo~ Like mi goin to make some online order purchase of Cxxxx bag fm a hm-maker. Gd biz, issnt it? Go think abt it. *wink*

Trip to Ikea pissed mi off. Since 2wks back, i aldy wanted to go Ikea to chk out mattress cuz Rob said over there got gd deal. Was happy finally can go there, bt ended up, i havnt even gotten chance to sit on one, or see e range, aldy kena shooed away. Wats wrong wif buying mattress in Ikea wor. Talked as though i'm pain stupid - going to a wrong place to buy wrong thing. My shopping enthusiasm instantly dampened. Being brought to another so-called "correct" place for mattress, anyhw picked & bought 2. Thot e episode was over, but in e night, i saw on papers "Seahorse mattress 50% off" !!!! AIYO - *pull hair*

Shopping in town was quite fun. Had fun trying out shoes in Taka basement. muahahaha. Buyin pressie was a headache cuz i cldnt make up my mind wat i wan to buy. Dun wanna my pressie, for watsoever reason, ended up collectin dust somewhere. Went MontBlanc... chk out e fountain pens. Was trying a couple, den found the ink smudged all over my hand. &^%$# WAHLAUZ!!! Branded leh. ~_~ Suddenly made mi rem my colleague tellin mi - fountain pen too high class for mi to use. Said i suitable for low class pen. *angry* Immediately, i threw out e idea of buyin fountain pen. HUMPH. I moved on to another section - almost cldnt resist dat wallet.. I luv their wallet. lolz. bt cuz it prob gonna end up in some dark corners, so - nope. Thot these Nike & Puma watches r kinda cool.. AIYOO.. looked so nice leh!!! Mi fren so nice to put e watches and lemmi compare. lolz. Headache. Ended up, i din buy anything. hahaha.

so much so for my wkend lor.. Tmr's back to work.

Why monday's always come sooo fast. =(

Is tis e kind of life you wan?

My ex-FC's fav question to mi and miniboz - "Is tis e kind of life u wan?" Both of us wld throw a bitter laugh, w/o explictly spelled out our answer.

Abit sick of days where u reached office, in-out-in meetings, lunch-in, clear emails, dinner in office, reached hm 10plus.. showered, blog, rest. OMG - dats typical steffie's life - which is 'NO LIFE". Cldnt even hav proper timealone. Very tired.. =( I dun even hav time for shopping!!! aiyo - die liao. Bt tis sat, need to do mkt visit - to really chk out my boys. There goes my wkend. *sobsob*

today kept hearing e word "horrendous" x 2.. wah lauz. "bloody horrendous" &^%$#.... i hate today's meeting. Dat fatty. ~_~ ANGRY. PLUS... for one split sec, m soooo happy goin o/s wid my boz for some o/s launch.. i dyin to go since i joined. Bloody hell, dat fatty went "i think one of u go, n den come back to share wid another" *pull hair!!!!* &^%$ My middle finger aldy poked underneath e table. WAH LAUZ!! Aldy threw tis at e back of my head, when durin din din time, they asked hw cum mother hen went korea, den nw go UK, and den not mi. WAH LAUZ!! Dun remind mi la. Where got pdt mger of such glam glam & super challenging category always stuck inbound one. SO... tis yr = zero biz trip. Company trip = Genting trip. WAH LAUZ!!!!

*heavy sighz* Maybe LG has beta incentive. lolz.

Nvm, on a positive note - i shall look forward to my increment. =D On top of being happy durin my last BKK co. trip plus dat HK biz trip, I just realised some of e happy moment for mi is getting my promotion, den my 13th month, den my bonus, and nw my increment (cross my finger). Sometimz i asked myself - since when my mind only hovering ard monetary returns? A total new feelin to mi cuz ur stupid steffie's mentality towards work is "i work for love". Nw i think abt it - F%$# u. 

Finally its wednesday... 2 more to go...

Saw a region colleague holding e same O2 A.L white color LE phone ~_~ If he has e same white holder, i swear i m goin to change it. =p But but but... wld search for e best of e best deal... cuz mi aint goin to b like some dudo sold it off at a dirt cheap price and den whinned e entire wk. Thk God dat it doesnt hang dat much.. juz dat i heard sometimz sms cldnt get through. Hmm.. i love e color~

E other day was waitin for e gals to do up their hair, den went to birkenstock raffles city branch to chk out the sandals. Initially was abit dun feel like goin in cuz mi wearing a 'birkenstock' lookalike sandals branded 'Charles & Keith' tsk tsk. But i dun care lar, cuz i wan to chk out any latest design. M surprised and definitely impressed by the customer service provided. E ladies there are very friendly and helpful. Some of the other outlets r known for their lousy services la. Aniwae... i bought e sandals cuz of e gd service. lolz. My mum loves my pair, so prob head back to get one more for her. ^^

My lips are really red.. aka too heaty...aka goin to fall sick soon. HAIZ. sianz. Tis morning e MRT really champion. Fm AMK to Bishan, i think it took like 15mins instead of e usual less den 5mins. It stopped, moved, stopped, moved... WAHZ. SO scared dat it might take like ages to reach office. Quickly alighted at Bishan & hitch a ride. Tis SMRT always got problem one leh. ~_~

Was helping e team to clear up the storeroom till like 10plus pm. Nw my feet kept cramping. damn painful. Princess majiam cannot work like dat. Carry bit bit stuff, feet cramp. muahahahaha.

^-^

One of these days, if hav time must go chk out Simon's new store. lolz. Ask him to go pick one which he thinks suits mi. =D Hmm.. ask him to serve mi. muahaha. M sure he sure went dwn his bended knees and put on e shoes for mi.. =D Cuz he's sooo customer service oriented.

finally firmed up on my May holidays ^^. Its so yucky to find out dat our big event wld b held e immediate tues aft Vesek day (19may-mon). Aiyo. I wld b having fun over the long long long wkend leh. I where got time to prepare... Anyway, cross e bridge when we reach. M sure mi goin to hav fun. ^_____________^

This shower heater we recently installed... aiyo.. only used by mi, roberto, and my SIL... wahz.. den my parents n nic got so used to showering cold water. Made mi think abit waste monies.. ~_~ Must persuade them to use... Even e bird uses cold water to shower. Casper uses hot water leh. lolz. Miss him, wonder hws he's doing. E last round i saw him was b4 CNY.

Recently one of colleagues asked hw cum i so happy recently. lolz. m surprised at his observation. m nt so happy wid work recently cuz nw am at a cross road. Too many things to do, bt dunno where to start, but there's a fear knowing if u dun kick start clearing e shit, the pipeline is going to b choked. Happy aka more relax is cuz... divert watsoever attention toward anywhere but work. Bad ya. lolz. Scarly one fine day, m like my colleague - suddenly checked into hotel for a night to take a break fm e world. =D

Tiring day...

Thot Fri wld b relaxing - nope. wrong. Ended up, meeting aft meeting aft meeting. Was relieved dat cld catch mrs ling for dinner at tis place where rotiprata sells at $9/piece. lolz. Koko was frenly to mi. Haha. Tried to sleep early at 12am, bt din really sleep till 330am. Busy texting my sweetie, unloading all my unhappiness on work. Dragged myself up early to go office for promoters meeting. Stayed on to do some work since it was pouring really heavy, bt was nice to go lunch @ Thomson wid one nice company. While he busy makin calls, i busy shoppin for tidbits =D

Alot of "first time" today... tsk tsk. First time boliao boliao, we went explore lower pierce reservior n was surprised on the qty of monkeys and ppl who go there to fish. lolz. Quite a nice place, bt we hurried off when it started to rain. wasted. Had another first time experience exploring another place.... erm.. reserve it for ourselves - but we were rather surprised by the "highclass highclass feel". Not bad... tsk tsk. Quite cozy.. & fantastic sweetie who never failed to take my breathe away.

Earlier on i mentioned abt my poor fren who had a terrible experience wid some idiot. We thot it was settled - at least i thot so during my last blog entry. BUT NO! It was really peace before the storm. ~_~ The can of worm was finally opened up tonight, wid us all geared up to kill watsoever worms. EEEkkkkk... - no choice la. Tonight's encourter was the most draining. First time to support my fren in such incident, though its nt new to mi. Nevertheless.. thk God its over. lolz. sooo tired nw.

hi there...

Past few days were havin training wif o/s counterparts. Had fun when we went for dinner at Jumbo last night. Din join e guys for drink though i'm flattered dat the trainer fm Holland personally invited mi. Instead, went to the gals' hotel room chit chat. ^-^ So cute, the gals.

Felt tired. Left office late today, and then realised dat i'm e only left! Gosh. Quite bothered abt work recently. Within, i felt really yucky abt myself having to go direct to my mini-boss to complain abt some of my peers. As though backstabbing. HAIZ. But they hav been sitting on the things for weeks and i hav had enuff following up and getting either no response or no change in status. I have ppl hot on my heels on the same matter as well. Vexed. Urgh - tough. Think my mini boss goin to see mi equally useless on getting ppl to do what they hav committed. Useless cuz small issues oso need to escalate to him. Dunno la. =(

Everyone came to mi sayin "ay, ur boss put on a lot of weight hor". lolz. N tis vain pot is quite vexed abt it. Cfm its cuz of those ice-creams. I'm nice - i place one weighing scale in his rm so dat he can monitor his weigh gain/loss, AND of cuz for mi to monitor mine as well la. Another of my sales mger oso damn funny. Kept sayin put on weight la, must go exercise la. Its weird - men in my office put on weight when stress, women lost weight when stress. ^_^

Some issue happened to a close fren recently, m really happy dat things finally settled dwn... Brought back some memories of mine on similar situations. Really hav to agree - That which does not kill u, makes u stronger.

Vantage Point

Watched a fantastic movie tonight - "Vantage Point". At least its so much beta den e "Untracible" we watched last sunday. The 'killwithme.com' website is just so disturbing. Urgh.

Aniwae - back to "Vantage Point". The way it was filmed, was truly unique. Eight strangers wif eight diff points of view trying to unlock the one truth behind an assassination attempt on the president of the United States. Its really cool. ^-^ The only drawback was each point of view was shown in a "play-back" style... so its kinda irritating when aft each view point, it "fast-forward" and went back to the very first screen of "11.59am - the time before e assassination". ~_~ But alright, worth e monies. =D Ok, nt my monies, bt worth it. =p

This wk will b slightly relaxed... cuz today n tomolo, mi on full day training.. thinkin of extending to Thursday.. n friday e world's going Batam, so life definitely relax in office. =D Anything abt next wk? Next time den worry la. =D

So happy to see my Indian bf today. He was eating ice-cream some more! Last sat, went shopping specifically bought him a Nike windbreaker. So dat when he practices his marathon or watsoever, he can wear it =D Holland is soooo cold at times. He likes it. ^^ Thk God I took e 'L' size, i'm totally useless in choosing shirts. E ladies r comin to mi saying "Stephanie! U sure going to miss him HOR!!" Then i wld keep nodding my head.. n he wld laugh out blushing. SO cute. lolz. Am going to miss miss miss him loads. ;-(

The useless soccer coach lost his cool again. omg. Can u imagine a soccer coach instead of strategising hw to score more goals, he walked ard askin e boys to do proper hsekeeping, cabinets to clean up, floor to be clear of waters, boots to be cleaned, shirts to be tucked in at all times... ^%$# Useless fella. Irritating.

Sometimz its gd to let it go...

I was strolling home juz nw, deep in thoughts.

Its nothing new to any one of us - when you are being forced to give up something you truly love dearly. You wan it so badly to stay wid u dat u even lay dwn ur pride and beg for it. There's ppl even kneel dwn for forgiveness.

As much as u looked back and regretted ur behaviour which resulted such conclusion, i think it is impt to know that... it takes two hands to clap. Is there a point for you to try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost? When both of u r moving in different directions, when both of u r sleeping at far edges of e bed, when wat u hav done kept hitting on the wall.........sometimes, its gd to just let it go.

You can analyse the r/s, look for reasons, and causes, but you will never do any more than takes the life out of the experience.

Take it as a learning, let it go.. and move on.

If you keep your heart open, love will come again.

its wkend again...

Next Fri, everyone's heading batam... =( I cant go.. felt sooo disappointed. But no choice, work comes first. Next time, den go wid my own frens.

Recently, got really hurt by some remarks made by a close fren. Din blew my top, bt my face aldy sunken... bt dat doesnt stop those hurtful remarks. ~_~ Sighz. Though meant to b jokes, bt dun carry too far... haiz. Sad.

Casting dat aside... mi felt tremendously pleased when i stepped into my hse today. =D Dat hsehold purchase i was saying.. finally set up and my family aldy using liao ^^ Think my roberto's e happiest. And steffie oso la. ^______^

Tmr's sat.. Attending e SFF in Taka at 10pm. Urgh, lousy timing. Our VIP invitation cards gain free entry to MOS tmr nite. Nt bad hor. lolz. Rite aft, i goin home koon liao lor. =D

Okie.. hav a nice wkend ya~

last yr tis time.....

Last yr tis time, i was in Japan. Still rem e shopping spree on Burberrys.. & e ridiculous times e three of us visited the shinto temples aka shrines plus the prayers. lolz. Had great laughs. I missed e hot springs. Nw i sld b sleeping in tatami... ^-^

Ytd slept at 5am. Madness. Reached office at 830am juz cuz i wanna catch my big boss. Nw i really zombotic. In fact whole day, i wished for a bed... bt i'm in and out of meetings.. ~_~ Bit bit regret to accept e invitation to e SFF.. Sat 10pm. WAHZ.. siaoz man.

i'm really happy today cuz someone close to mi is promoted. =D Very proud and definitely pleased, bt somehw felt really sad cuz his promotion means his need to move on to another country. Gonna miss him big time. So.. i m goin to buy him a big pressie. Muz think think think... =D Bt i goin miss him sooooo much, he wld b sooooo far away. =(

happy april fool's day...

Something really unpleasant happened today. It tasted truly bitter to b wronged.. and e worse thing was, it immediately placed u out of the league. You r one hot candidate to heaven, bt one misunderstanding - off to hell you go.

Your words against their words... their perceptions against the reality. Hair pulling situation, total frustration... bt come to think abt it, ppl up there, dun care abt ppl dwn there. U wan ur words to mean something? u wan turn the blacks to whites? SURE - move up there and be God. Then, u command total respect. No one question if u point at an orange and say its an apple. =D If you still nt up there? Swallow it and rem it well, but say "Yes - dat red apple is definitely an orange." ^-^

Actually come to think abt it, its nt e first time. Sld hav taken it wif a pinch of salt, rather den over-reacting again. Low EQ.
"Take it easy, mate" ; "Take it as a learning".

The world's beautiful if its an april fool's joke. Anyway, it on longer matters.

hellow saturday...

Hw's ur sat? Wif barely 3 hrs of sleep, i headed office for a 830am meeting. Tiring, so straight aft dat.. headed back. Dying to catch some sleep by noon, bt failed miserably. Went late lunch & den followed by tea in McDonalds... Tis McDonalds, any time any day filled wif ppl. The weather was horrible. I was whinning when havin lunch cuz its damn bloody hot. Unbearable. Aft lunch, it started to rain... unbelievable. The weather is juz so unpredictable these few days.

Came back fm e fashion shw... Nice. Its my first time to b invited, and i find it really cool to watch models aft models well dressed, catwalkin dwn.... i was practically drooling. I used to dream being a fashion designer... its cool to hav ur own labels, u noe. So during shopping, no matter which country, i wld purchase one or two fm those new own label fashion designer. Support mah. =D I still rem goin to TP chkin out their designing courses during open hse den. lolz. Every one has their own little little dreams which they given up along their course of living ya.

Nt quite in a pleasant mood.. quite dwn actually cuz i wld feel so lonely tonight... and agonising. URGH.

wat a night....

Had a farewell dinner... great laughters fm e guys... all had fun. A session where everyone unloaded built up frustration and let loose joking & laughing like madppl. BUT....Somehw, juz had to sigh. Dun wan to talk abt it.

I dread of tomorrow. Clue no. 1, tomorrow is mth end closing. Clue no. 2, tomorrow is oso quarter closing. Clue no. 3, tomorrow is oso time for quarter Q2 planning. Last clue, we r having a meeting wif our director on... e numbers. ^%$#*&@

The only thing which can look forward, prolly is whether there's round of wii... Sat decided to accompany a colleague to attend e Singapore Fashion Wk. OKIE, lets dun talk abt work!

The other day a fren was telling mi dat sometimes its impt to see those little little things which ppl do for u. Basically to b appreciative. Maybe this person overlooked something which is impt to u, bt yet again he/she might oso hav given u some other stuff which you overlooked.

In situations, we must give and take.

So... if recently, u r pissed wif ur special someone, ur family, ur frens over some small small things which he/she din do for u... try think fm another angle, wat r e things he/she has done for u.

yoz yoz~

Still havin running nose and slight cough, n med finished, so decided to pay a visit to the doc again tis morning. Doc gave mi a stronger form of antibiotics. I hav met few docs who self-proclaimed dat they seldom give MC, bt yet insisted to gimmie mi one. i nt so serious wat. Made mi hesitate to rest at home or go to work. You wld hav guessed my decision. =p Went back office aniwae, cuz promised lunch wif my colleague, whose last day is today. So sad. Gd thing is, we got to sit in his new Subaru.. ooohooo... nice nice. ^-^

Returning back office aft my leave, dunno why... i hav slowed dwn my pace @ work. Nt sure if its gd or nt.. Usually i wld rush work in office, came back still cldnt let go and continue to do some more.. bt tis time, even if the thots came in my mind, i pushed it out. =D Cld b also dat my body is acting on avoidance strategy, to avoid doin more work until nxt wk.. cuz nxt wk, i wld b takin on additional portfolio. Wld b super busy. Wish mi luck, i need lots of it.

Recently making some hsehold purchase decision.... its gd to see every one self-volunteer to do some research. Mum and Rob chkin out diff alternatives, pricing, specs.. Dad own-self oso go see see look look.. and he aldy engaged contractor. For mi? i where got time? lolz. i just in charge of digestin their respective info, decide and then pay. HAHAHA. So happy dat i dun need to do the leg-work. Tis is call delegation. HAHAHA.

first day back to work...

yup yup! first day back in office. tsk tsk.. thks for ur concern leh. Even got sms early in e morning to remind mi its my first day back. hahaha. So sweet. muackz.

nothing much.. still having flu. Find it hard to concentrate when talkin to my bosses, cuz having running nose. Lunch totally no appetite - first cuz eating wif my director, next cuz really juz tasteless. But dinner's appetite is much better... nt cuz i hav no issues on my mind... simply cuz i dun wan to think abt it. Sit there, building castle in the air oso good. haha.

saw my new colleague. aijor. told u philips no std for men. utter disappointment. haiz. No cute guys at all. BUT at least I bumped into dat one and only cutie on my way to lunch today. =D

Suddenly wish to hav a huge teddy bear to hug to sleep. Urgh. rainy cooling night... sleep well ya.

Wed - A day of fun & laughter, peace & joy ^^

Met shirley for lunch at Boat Quay - told her no chinese, no western, no jap food.. so.. korean food. lolz. Made mi rem my korean trip.
The snow in Jeju... the skiing... the weather.. oooo... i missed korea. =D Kimchi.. i rem wense din like kimchi, think he complained e daily kimchi servings. lolz. I'm pretty alright though. Oh, we learnt e makin of kimchi too. =D

Aft lunch, we hopped over to TCC for some drinks. Caught bit bit in e rain, and dats when i started to feel... nt so alright. The place was packed. wat made it worse was.. e service kinda lousy. But i love e design on e wall, though.

Was making my way to dwn to Raffles MRT station when i felt my temp raising. Cfm e rain la. Din noe there's quite a fair bit of shopping cld b done at e station, so got tis shawl at 15bucks. Nice hor. lolz. Quickly wrapped it ard, be4 makin my way dwn to potong pasir.

Hendretta was surprised to see mi. Ha... i love talkin to her, so nice, so frenly, so elderly sister feel. haha. Everytime must ask if i seeing anybody. tsk tsk. i bo liao bo liao, juz picked up e crayons and drew watever i see. Nice? =D

Hot chocolate and Earl G. tea... only 5bucks. Taste yummy and sooo affordable =D Wif free magz, n chance for u to shw ya artistic talent... muahahha..=D

Was there a couple of hrs till i met up wif Clare back in tanjong pagar. Of cuz i damn free. =D We headed Revive Wellness at Tras Street. Went for their Mar Pre-moving promo 1 for 1 free treatment of Body Beautiful package. hehe. Full body fruitty scrub, body massage, plus full body slim & contour wrap + hot blanket. =D Shiok, it was more than the supposingly 2 hrs. ^_____^

sunday afternoon...... relax relax... =D

Had done wif my 2nd round of med. Urgh. i hate takin med! Every time i stared at tat greenie bottle of cough mixture, i wld curse "i hate u", before i forced it dwn my throat. Tonite, one last round, and i'm gonna bid it gdbye. =D

Through my manga nw. So so so happy. For yrs, i hav been tryin to locate it, i even said whoever get e entire set for mi, i wld marry him. HAHAHA. Gd dat i found it online. Hee... so nws, its every freetime - manga time. woohoo~

Came back fm my brunch, gd to see my parents at hm, i suggested hw abt a yr end trip - 1wk off to China, just the 3 of us. I pay. Dad shook his head, said - 1 wk gone, biz hw? -_-" URGH!!! i knew it!!!!! =@ Ask mi to bring my mum can liao. Cannot both of them go at the same time cuz need someone to manage e biz. WAH LAUZ!!! %$#@*&.... nvm, shall try again later.

ytd cleared my thousand of yahoo emails. Scary. I havnt chk them for ages, since i joined my current company. Saw lotsa resume request la.. new job posting la.. seriously, i think e job market is gd nw, but.. wan change beta change nw.. cuz.. e economy soon aint goin to b gd ya. Saw herny invitation to multiply. Added her, and saw her posting on her boys. sooooo cute.

U cldnt believe wat time i managed to zzz.. 5plus AM. And wat i had for brunch? Soya beancurb. Those who eagerly wanna slim dwn sure envy mi big time. i bloody hell cursing & swearing. SO.. those who can sleep, pls b thkful cuz there's ppl like ME who dyin to sleep, bt cldnt sleep. AND.. those who can eat, pls b thkful cuz there's ppl like ME who dyin to eat, bt juz no appetite. URGH.   

Finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel....

Yoz yoz....finally in lighter mood cuz condition is better as compared to the past 3 days. The nights are really nightmare cuz cldnt sleep cuz either vomitting or coughing.. every sec passed as though an hr. The min u laid dwn, u coughed like mad. I havnt slept well for the past few nights. Its horrible. My body was as though drained off any energy, cld really move ard. I got really depressed being so helpess.

Today went to see another doc... His med seems beta. Hope tonight can rest w/o coughing. HAIZ. Where got ppl take leave for 1 week, and den Thurs fallen sick till sun. ~_~ I might as well, dun take leave and take MC. Think He doesnt like me. hahaha.

I really kuku one. I took 2 bananas e other day for lunch - thinkin prob i din take enuff fruits. Dad was horrified to hear i took 2, he said bananas caught phlagm. WTF?!!!!!! Mum cooked fish soup, i filled e entire bowl of rice wif soup and drained it dwn. Dad gave mi tat "shocking" face and said fish soup will make mi cough even more. WTF?!!!! Then he went grumbling at my mum for preparing wrong food. WAH LAUZ.. say before i eat mah. Aft i ate liao, den tell mi. *&^%$

Got new colleague onboard. Hasnt yet get to see him. But Monday, can chk him out. My mini-boss asked mi nt to turn up for work if still unwell. Said scare virus spread. HAIZ. How mean. Must be sensitive mah. Ok lar, at least he's kind enuff to get mi thermometer and inhaler. OOH, i tell u... never trust inhaler. It never works, so... dun waste money to buy.

Found an online site.. i m so bloody happy and i m so sure its gonna keep mi really really busy. All thks to Roberto! muackz muackz =D

My one wk leave is up. Not going to touch my laptop till Monday. Gotta cherish myself more. If my one wk absense doesnt disrupt anything, den i am sure.... any work can delay till e next day. =D Actually i envy those ppl hor, who can leave on time, and hav time for shopping, for gym, for gatherings. Anyway, wat hav i done over e wk? Come to think abt it, nt bad too. Frens gatherings... facial.. massage... too bad my KTV cancel cuz i fallen sick. Dad went ahead wif his frens instead. URGH! Nvm, can always arrange again.

Bad weather

The weather has been really bad. So my dear friends out there, pls take care of urself.

The other day, followed my fren to this LANA Cakes. I rem Clare has mentioned this cake shop to mi before. Located at Greenwood avenue (behind National JC). She told mi they very yaya. Must reserve, otherwise dun hav any cake for u. hahaha. Hav lar, one can buy over the counter, just that super limited choices, dats all. Hmmm... dunno if taste good or not. See if there's any chance, can go there see see look look again.

Since we aldy at tat area, we decided to walk walk see see... wahz.. quite many eateries with nice ambiance, nice deco, beautiful table settings.. =D Food is not expensive, so you may want to chk out the place. If i hav chance, i wld love to go there to eat. But too bad, need car den can go. See hw ler.

My sister-in-law bought some cupcakes. I think cupcakes are really cute - small small cute cute. I have never eaten a cupcake before. No joke, and i have no intention of eating one oso. They are those type which it looks nice nice, chio chio, colourful colourful, but... u just dun wanna eat it to destroy everything. They prob also taste too sweet to my liking. haha. Ya... steffie needs huge amt of cravings for cake, den i wld feed on a cupcake. hahaha.

hi....

went to a couple of places.. Actually, i cld jolly well go back home to rest aft my lunch at Boat Quay cuz caught in the rain and caught a flu. =( Ended up, i decided to heck it and do wat i hav planned for. =D Anyway, I'm always sick wat.. dun wan to waste one precious day.

Yummy lunch and saw one cutie. Brainless cutie - dats why i say, looks dun mean anything....Anyway, aft lunch, we dashed fm one shelter to another to avoid the rain n den had tea in TCC. Went shopping for a shawl cuz bit bit cold. Got this bright purple shawl at $15. =D i quite like it. Satisfied and wrapped it ard my body, i went ahead to potong pasir to pay a visit to my fren's cafe. Promised her dat i wld visit her when i'm free. Caught in the rain again when i dashed across e road to e cafe. Urgh. This forbidden land is damn quiet sia. Even e mrt station has low traffic flow.

I luv e cafe. Spent a couple of hrs there to drink, read e magz, do my fav drawing, chit chat... before my next meeting at 6pm at Tanjong pagar. Fulfilling day, though nw i'm cladded in thick sweater, coughin like mad, nose tap failed to turn off. Urgh. See my condition tmr before proceed whether to carry on my planned activities or not. See hw. lolz. =p

heard alot of updates abt things happening in office. Actually nt suppose to, but i guess e best thing i can do nw is offer a listening ear. Soon - i'll b back. B patient.

i'm dead cuz...

needless to mention... it's yet another sleepless night. No coffee bt i had two pots of earl grey tea earlier on. lolz. aiya. nvm la. Havent done wif my harry potter yet.

Tmr's meeting shirley for lunch.. keke.. korean food. yummy yummy. Tis wk - no more fried food, no jap food, no western food.. n of cuz no coffee. =D Lookin forward to tmr's lunch, and..... need to go potong pasir oso if not, no time liao... and.. massage tonight.. HMMM... wonder if i hav enuff time or nt. Bt, wat e hell.

E other day, another mktin mger commented on the "powderful england" of e replied email fm tis msian service provider. WAHZ.. dunno cuz he too pissed off over her lousy services or he really has a sharp tongue. HAHAHA. He was so funny - commenting ppl's 'england' majiam 'direct translation fm cantonese' muhahahaha. So mean. lolz.

Actually at times hor, my boss scolded mi for being too critical as well leh. Bt he is nt dat kind either. He called mi obese when he's e one puttin on weight. I returned e favor by makin sure e world knows i put in a weighin scale in his room for this vain pot. Back to e 'being critical' steffie. Seriously hor..i wld really topple off if i hear ppl say "grass" instead of "glass"... "desert" instead of "dessert" ... "effected" instead of "affected"...and i wld flash a horrified facial expression whenever i heard super poor pronunciation. DEN, prob my colleague opposite caught hold of my look, and wld start laughing. =D Nt my fault wat. ANd i repeat - its pro-NUN-ci-a-tion. Ready for mi to slap you if you say pro-NOUN-ci-a-tion. i oso kena corrected by uni mates last time k. Speak properly la. My english oso super rotten at times. But, lets juz make e effort ya.

I rem everytime i read my someone's essay or watever, he sure kena scolded upside dwn by mi. "wat e hell u tryin to say?!!"... happy happy "present tense" here, happy happy "past tense" there.. e best is he "are", he "have".... wahz.. he really dunno which side of his face he wanna it to swell. Rem the infamous - "he called mi to call you to call him?" You got the point. muahahaha.

Urgh... 1.45am.. and eyes still wide wide.. ~_~ Gdnite, darlings!

Day 2.... =D

Woke up early morning, brushing my teeth, saw tis note specially for mi fm mum. So cute hor. Last time when i was young, watchin movies, always thot its really poor thing when kids got such hand written notes fm parents "mum's nt ard, lunch on e table. luv ya"... i always think its so damn sad. Haiz... ya, we also got such notes fm my mum.... nt juz "hsehold chores" la.. of cuz oso "breakfast or lunch" she prepared. SO... first task - laundries. ~_~

hehehe.... finally done up, pray pray rain wont come. Next is to feed allbert la..  kept yakin e whole morning. buay tahan.

Today went for my massage. Half way through, decided to do hand paraffin. anyway, i have like 50 lor. (dunno when i will finish). Hws paraffin hand therapy being done? Your hands are submerged into a warm wax bath (its damn bloody hot), my hands go in and out couple of times (dun forget, my skin super thin =p). In and out till the forms takes on the look of a glove.
Then the hands are placed in towels while i zzz. During ur relaxation stage, the muscles begin to release tension they may b holding, and e skin on the hands become rehydrated. So, when its over, your hands will feel smooth and soft. =D Aiya, basically its for soften hands, rejevenate skin color and ease joint stiffness la. But hor..painful leh. prob my threshold for pain is really low la... i majiam put my hands into hot water like dat!! ~_~'' 40over more times to go.. hw ar. urgh. Who wants to try?

My ulcer (i assume it is) is still sore and painful. Dunno which idiot ask mi to use salt over it. I almost screamed up the ceiling. Allbert for once kept quiet and looked at mi in horror. *&^%$

gosh... its aldy past 12am..

somehw i hav a feelin dat i prob wont get my sleep tonite. 1230am, eyes still wide. Urgh.

bad bad throat tis morning... effected cuz of the hole at e ceiling of my mouth. mi aint even sure if i can call tat GUM. So painful dat i rather skip my meals. It makes my throat really sore. Each chewing as the food touches the ceiling, its as though adding salt to e wound. Each swallowing is a pain in e ass. Urgh. To think, i still aim 3 proper meals everyday. Today i only had 1. So painful, hw to eat.

first day into my holiday - aldy fallen sick. shirley was saying dat we very ku-ming (bitter life)..once din work, fall sick. (Great minds think alike) lolz. Dats why i say, dun force mi eat bittergourd, cuz my life aldy bitter enuff. HAHAHA..

e other day, someone asked mi.. wats so major which made my body breaks dwn e way it did. If its nt abt work, den wat is it? It came to the tip of my tongue, but i pushed it back dwn. For watever it is, i can handle it. Wat worse can it be. =D